Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Tis So Sweet To Trust In Jesus. Part 3

If you have not read part 1 & 2 of the story go here and here.

It’s September 2010 and Tim is scheduled to have his surgery.  Two days before his surgery…..I get a positive pregnancy test!  Okay, more like several positive pregnancy tests!  We were in complete shock!  How could this be?  We could not stop crying and laughing and praising the Lord!!!  We then started trying to decide if we should go through with the surgery or not.  The surgery would be expensive, take Tim away from work for about 3 weeks, take him away from church, and not to mention hinder his lifestyle and cause quite a bit of pain.  We decided to go through with it even though I was pregnant.  We knew we wanted several children and his problem could eventually cause him health issues down the road.  So with mixed emotions, we prepare for surgery. 

He did great in his surgery!  I was so proud of him and so thankful that he was willing to go through this for our family.  I absolutely hated seeing him in pain though.  Recovery was slow and painful….but he was doing good.  What kept a smile on our faces through his recovery was knowing that I was pregnant!!!!!!  We were so thrilled and talked about our baby non-stop! 

We went to our first two doctor appointments to check on me and our little one.  Tim was even able to make it to those….even though he wasn’t feeling the best.  After our second doctor appointment, Tim took me to Barnes & Noble for us to pick out some pregnancy books.  He even bought me a special journal to record our journey and got me a special ink pen too!  (I’m slightly obsessed with ink pens!)  We also started making plans on how to make our big announcement to our friends! 

The next month our church was having revival services!  It was such a neat time because our hearts were so full and we were so thankful for what God was doing in our life.  At the beginning of our revival (around Sunday) I had started having some light spotting.  I wasn’t sure if I should be alarmed or not.  I called our doctor to let her know about it.  She said light spotting can be common in early pregnancy and not to worry about it.  She said to call if I started cramping or having heavier spotting.  My fears were pretty much eased. 

On Tuesday night of our revival it was my turn to sing on the praise team!  I love singing at our church.  We were almost done with our last song and I felt a huge gush of something wet.  I knew immediately that it was a lot of something but I wasn’t sure what it was.  I started to feel really sick.  The song could not get over fast enough.  I was really worried that people could see whatever this wetness was on my pants.  I walked quickly off the stage and headed straight to the bathroom.  I normally just go sit down in the pew next to Tim when I am done, so he was wondering what I was doing. 

I get into the bathroom and find out that the gush I felt was blood.  Not just spotting….but bright red blood.  And it was everywhere!  I couldn’t stop it.  My underwear was soaked.  I didn’t have anything with me to help it.  I was in too much fear and panic to cry.  I tried to clean myself up as best I could. 

Tim and I left right away to head to the ER.  He was driving like a maniac if I remember right.  I still could not cry.  Neither of us said a word to each other on the drive to the ER. 

To be continued…..

12 comments:

Natalie said...

oh my goodness, how terrifying. Although I know the outcome of this story, I only know slightly about this part and I am so sorry for this scary event in your life!

Adam and Wendy said...

Oh Amanda, you've done it again....edge of my seat here! I can't imagine what was going through your brain in the way to the hospital :(

David and Elizabeth said...

oh my. how scary. i can't even imagine having to go through this. i know it has made you stronger, but to have to suffer like that is horrible.

Emily said...

My heart goes out to you...but God is so good! :) Waiting anxiously for Part 4!

Michelle (michabella) said...

Oh my goodness!!! How scary!

Jamie Leigh said...

Awww my heart is pounding reading this!! Can't wait for the rest of the story!

Jessica said...

How scary!!

Emily P. said...

just stumbled across your blog...so sorry for this experience!

Jennifer said...

I'm so proud of you for sharing your story. I shared it with a friend of mine in hopes that it will encourage her and her husband. And I'm looking forward to reading part 4.

Cindy Bennett said...

Hi Amanda and Tim! My name is Cindy Bennett, and we have never met. My friend, Jennifer Flett, goes to church with you and she ran across your blog and shared it with me because my husband, Josh, and I are still in the midst of our infertility journey, and our story looks very similar to yours. We got married September 2008 at the age of 28. We both really wanted to have several children, but decided to wait until we had been married at least a year to start trying, since we had saved ourselves until we were married. We thought it would be no big deal getting pregnant... boy, were we wrong! 2 1/2 years later and we are still trying. We've done all kinds of tests and Josh had a bi-lateral varicocele repair surgery done at the end of August 2011. All of the pain and emotions you have shared about are so familiar to me and a part of our everyday life. I was in tears as I read your posts! We know God has a plan for us, and are trying so hard to wait patiently for His timing, and to serve Him while we are waiting!

Thank you so much for sharing your journey with everyone. I hate that you have had to experience the pain and struggle that you have gone through, but am so thankful to have another person who can relate to our struggle. Your story also gives me hope to cling to and a reminder that God is faithful and He still does miracles! :)

May God bless you and your little bundle of joy as you begin this exciting new chapter in your life! We will be praying for you!

God bless,

Cindy and Josh Bennett <><

J and A said...

Thank you so much for sharing. Stumbled across your blog and your story. Can't wait for more. New follower.

Beth Ann said...

I hadn't read this until now. That "gush of something" feeling you speak of is something I will never forget. So horrifying. Fortunately, I was at home when it happened to me. We also had all of the pregnancy books and I had started on a journal...I saved that journal with a few mementos in it and it brings me a lot of comfort since it is the only tangible thing I have to remember our first baby.