Friday, October 19, 2012

Mom Guilt

Whew!  This week has been something else!  I normally only work 2 days a week.  Which has been the perfect mix for me.  I have enjoyed being out of the house working but I still get lots of time at home with my girl.  This week I was covering for my job share partner who went on vacation (which I’m totally happy to do!) but I realized this week just how hard it would be to work full time!  This week was hard on me.  My emotions were all over the place.  It didn’t help that every evening we had to go help at our church since we are moving into a new building (post on that later!)  So I worked all day and then I would pick up E, feed her and then we went to church….and someone else watched her.  :(  I told Tim I was worried she didn’t love me anymore.  That she didn’t remember me.  I was worried that we were taking her too many places or keeping her out too much.  Basically every bit of mommy guilt you could imagine!  This week I was also ready to throw my pump in the trash!  Ugh….pumping all week is no fun.  But I persevered and I pumped enough milk everyday for E.  yahhooooo!   (I need to post on this too….but I am so stinkin proud of myself that I am still breastfeeding E at 6 months!)  On top of everything, our house is a wreck and we went to bed LATE every night.  It sounds like I’m complaining.  Ok….I kind of am! ha!  It was rough.  Yet, I am thrilled to be doing all of these things you know? 

So back to mommy guilt. 

I talked to my momma and she said she worked full time all through my childhood.  You know who it was hardest on?  Her.  She said when I was talking to her about everything… brought back all her feelings of guilt she experienced when I was little.  But, the wonderful thing…..I don’t remember any of that.  All I remember are the times I was with my momma!  I remember wonderful times with my family.  Moms beat themselves up!  My mom worked so hard for us.  And when she was with us, she gave us her all!  She was selfless.  And still is. 

I’m all over the place in this post aren’t I?

But you know what?  We don’t always have weeks like this.  We got through it.  We made it! 

And today I am home with my girl!  She is getting oodles of attention and snuggles!!!!!  I appreciate today so so much. 

My hat goes off to momma’s that work full time for their family.  It is hard stuff.  But staying home is no cake walk either. 


I love love love being a mom! 

One other thing… friend Melissa has a cute etsy shop.  She is having a fall sale in her shop and I wanted to share that with you all.  Click here to see all her cute things.  If you use the coupon code shopfall15 you will get 15% off!!!  Yippeee!


Here is one of the cute recipe boxes in her shop! 

Go take a look! :) 

Well everyone….I am off to do a little house work!!!!! 

Hugs to YOU!



Katie said...

Mommy guilt is no joke! It doesn't matter what your situation is, there's always something to feel guilty about. BUT lucky for us, babies are pretty adaptable little creatures :)

You're a great mommy!

Beth Ann said...

Yes, mommy guilt is definitely something I struggled within the first few months of motherhood and still do from time to time. It is so easy to get caught up in the little things and forget that all our babies/kids really want and need from us is LOVE. My mom worked full-time when I was growing up and I barely remember a day of daycare. I never doubted my mommy loved me either! Part of being a mom is learning to let yourself off the hook sometimes and to give yourself a break- give yourself some grace! It's a hard lesson to learn and the devil likes to flood our minds and emotions with reasons we aren't good enough, are bad moms, etc. Don't believe those lies for a second!

Jessica said...

Don't beat yourself up! You're such a great mom and are doing a wonderful job <3

Lauren said...

hey girl, I hope this week has been better for you! I definitely understand the mommy guilt. We've been really busy on the weekends (& will continue to be) which means Elyse is getting the chance to have sleepovers with her grandparents...while I'm thrilled for the free babysitting, I'm definitely having some mommy guilt about everythign that's going on!