Thursday, September 15, 2011

A ball of emotions.

How do I describe this week so far? 

It has been almost unbearable at times….but yet has been filled with a lot of joyful times and God’s goodness. 

Have you ever been there?

This week has been filled with car trouble, family issues, a broken toilet, a busy busy schedule,  the death of a close friend’s dad….I could go on.

Though we have also had some incredible joys this week that I can’t stop smiling about!  My heart is so full yet so broken at the same time.

It hurts.

It aches.

Yet I’m happy.

I am a ball of emotions and all I can do is talk to the Lord.  He holds it all. 

I got in the car to leave for work Wednesday morning and nothing.  The car doesn’t even crank.  We think it is the battery.  She is old and nearing the end of her life! ha!  So, I have been bumming rides off of people. 

I’m so frustrated about my car….and the money that will go with it….but yet I have been able to have sweet fellowship with my daddy who has so graciously taken me to work.  Precious time in the car and a stop by Starbucks for some pumpkin spice lattes. 

I cherish it.

I am so mad at our stupid toilet that keeps breaking….a call to the plumber is inevitable.  Again…see ya later cash!  Yet I am so thankful for my home and everything that I have.  I don’t deserve any of it. 

My heart is aching for some family issues.  Though I know the Lord is powerful and mighty and able to do miraculous things!

“Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us.”  Ephesians 3:20

We are busy!  I mean BUSY.  But we have had precious time ministering to young people and building relationships with them.  Tim preached an outstanding message on Wednesday night.  We have spent late nights in prayer together. 

“Let us lay aside every weight and the sin that so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us.” Hebrews 12:1

I am so sad for my sweet friend who lost her dad to cancer this week.  Though I am thrilled that he was a Christian and is with the Lord and pain free now. 

As you can see my heart is full of many things.  I have so many emotions.  I’m sure you can relate.  I’m just sharing my heart today. 

I don’t know how people walk through this life without the Lord?  Life can be so hard sometimes. 

I could fill endless blog posts with things that I am thankful for and the joys that I have in this life.

I don’t understand everything.  But i know that God is good and He is always the same.  He will never leave us. 

I have heard the saying…you are never stronger than when you are on your knees.

Just get on your knees and look up. 

Do you know Him?


Theresa said...

Yes! And so thankful He opened my eyes to His wonderful truths.
Keep looking up, sister.
Is it time for pumpkin spice lattes already?! I am still waiting for the fall weather here ;) Love those though!

Natalie said...

Isn't it funny how we can be so filled with joy and heartache at the same time?! Only with Jesus, I guess ;)
I'm glad you can count your blessings in the midst of struggles. And I think it's totally normal for lots of things to 'strike' at once. It seems like whenever we get ahead we have something happen to (toilet, car, some other money sucker!) It's just life, I guess!!

Jessica said...

You always have such an uplifting and positive attitude, it's infectious. Keep your head up my dear!

Emily said...

So sorry to hear about your friends Dad. A best friend of mine lost his father last Thursday too.

Breanna Veth said...

I feel like my life is filled with these times!! It is so good that you can look on the bright side of things. It helps us to be closer to the person God created us to be :)

Jessie Szmanda said...

Praying for you! You are so wise, and such a strong woman Amanda!

Lauren said...

such a great post. while i haven't literally been on my knees, I've certainly mentally been there. life is hard right now, for so many people on so many different levels. great post darling, I definitely needed this

cait said...

I love that you shared so honestly and openly about life. We feel like we've been stuck in a similar rut lately with gobs of things. Just when we think we see the light at the end of the seems something else pops up. Justin and I have had constant discussions lately reminding each other that most of these things we're dealing with are just "things". God tells us to store up riches in heaven...not riches here...I've been reminding myself of that one lately as we've seen our savings drain and drain and drain. Keep your eyes on Christ, girl! Isn't it so great we can have joy amidst all this too?!

Anonymous said...

So sorry all those things are happening! I'm so glad God enables you to see the silver lining in it all though! You are the best!

Callie Nicole said...

I totally understand - those kind of weeks are so hard emotionally!

JRuud said...

I love reading this. It really helps when you are going through a low and hard time. He is always there for us. I need to keep remembering that.

Beautiful blog.


Sarah said...

You have such good perspective!!